I'm pretty sure I've said this a bajillion times already, but I'm going to say it again. You are beautiful!!
When you came to us you had a concoction of hair colors, were wearing heavy, gawd-awful make-up, yoga pants, t-shirts and crocks. By the time you left we had you in real shoes, finally wearing jeans with cute tops, normal hair color and make-up that accented the beauty you already had. I feel like all of these things in and of themselves were marked accomplishments!
What we put on the outside is a direct reflection of what is going on on the inside. When I first started working again I was wearing workout capris and t-shirts to work, with sneakers, barely doing my make-up or hair. Now two years later I dress up for work. I have cute shoes. I wear jeans, but with nice tops, and I do my hair and make-up, wear simple jewelry and sometimes even perfume. What changed? It was all the inside stuff.
We women tend to reflect outwardly what's going on on the inside. So when we're sad or stressed out we start gaining weight, our skin gets bad, we don't do our hair, we wear clothes that don't flatter us, and we just give up. It happens to all of us, and at different times in ours lives. It's like a peak and valley kind of thing. The trick is to see it before it gets really bad, and do something about it.
You'll hear people say things like, "It was time for a change", or "I needed a fresh start", things like that. When a person says those things it means they've seen where they are and they're actively doing something to change the direction they're headed in. It can be a number of things, but like I said, you'll see women start to change their outward appearance when they start bettering the inside.
Now...since I've just said that women deal with this - this body image thing, do you think it's going to go away at some point? Right. It won't. It's the single biggest thing women struggle with, and it continues for the rest of our lives. And you know what I think? I think it's worse when you're a teenager. You have all those hormones going wacko inside you, messing with your head. Then you have "mean girls" and boys, and tv, and internet, and holy cow. It's a lot to handle. How do you shut out all the lies inside your head and only listen to the true stuff?
I think you know the answer, don't you? It's sometimes the hardest thing, yet really, it's the easiest! In order to overcome lies, you need to replace them with truth.
After my accident, my counselor helped me write out truth cards. They were actual 3X5 cards with truth sentences on them that I could take with me in the car, or at home, so whenever I would start to stress out, or think about all the bad stuff that could happen again, or did happen, I would pull out those cards and just start reading.
Wanna know what was on them? Well, in order to get to those truths we need to figure out what Truth really is. So where do we find truth? Do we find it in our emotions? I hope you answered no to that question. Emotions are erratic. At times they can be great, but they can also fool you. Do we find it in what others say about us? Again, tricky. It depends on who you're listening to. People don't always have the best intentions in what they say to you or about you, and people aren't perfect. Hmmm, I wonder where I could find someone who knows me, loves me, has truth to say about me, and is perfect. Are ya with me?
I want you to pull up your Bible app. Look up Psalm 139 (I would say the New Living Translation or something similar), and read the entire chapter. It's not very long. It won't take long to read. I want you to think about the things that David is saying here, and the truth about how God sees you, knows you and cares about you. He designed you to be just the way you are. You are not perfect, and you have things that God is going to work on over your entire life, but He made you with a personality, a spirit, a beauty that is unique - it's all Danielle. It's all Heaven.
This is probably the absolute biggest passage of scripture that I go to when I'm feeling less than certain about the way God made me...all my rolls, and scars, and weird things I've got goin' on. Sometimes it's really hard to feel beautiful, and some days are way harder than others. But don't let those days become too frequent, or let one day turn into several. When you start feeling that happen, go to people that will remind you of these truths, and do it yourself by pulling out your Bible and reading God's words to you.
There is another passage, 1 Peter 3:3-4 that says, "Do not let your adorning be external—the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear— but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God's sight is very precious."
And Proverbs 31:30 that says, "Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised."
Now, does this mean that God wants us to look ugly? No. That's a bunch of crap. But I want you to think about the conversation we had the other day about your blue hair. When people do stuff to the outside, wear super-fancy clothes, get tons of piercings or tats, or dye their hair crazy colors, or do weird crap to it, wear horrible make-up, or wear things like "hooker heals"...does this mean they've "got it together"? No. Does this make them cool? No. Doing those things doesn't MAKE someone cool. Maybe they're really not that cool. Maybe they're really messed up, or maybe they were already cool to begin with, but they feel the need to express it and show it off to others. I'm not saying any of this stuff is wrong...at all. But you have to be doing it for the right reasons. And you need to realize that that is, and will be, the only thing people see of you. If you want people to notice you for you then let your inside speak louder than your outside. If you want them to notice your blue hair than dye away!
When we wear nice things, wear nice make-up and do our hair we're accenting beauty we already have. When we do crazy things to ourselves, we're seeking attention. It's true! The problem is we want people's attention, because we want people to notice us, to really see us and like us for who we are, and usually if we're doing crazy stuff to ourselves, we're going to get the wrong kind of attention. When we're making these kinds of statements, all people are seeing is the blue hair and the black make-up. They're not seeing the person underneath all that. And by the time they have a chance to even get your name, they've already judged you based on the blue hair and the black make-up. And that's not the real you.
The real you likes Taylor Swift and The Band Perry, tickle fights, snuggles, drawing beautiful pictures, and making awesome food all by herself. You are creative and fun, smart and beautiful!!
Sweetie, know that you are beautiful and allow other people to see it. Don't flaunt your beauty by trying to be "sexy", and don't hide from it by burying yourself in hair dye, make-up, tattoos and piercings. Just live IN it. Just be you. But in order to do that you're going to have to figure out what the truth about you really is. So go do it! You have some time before school starts, and lots of time to sit around and play on your kindle. Time to do something positive for yourself!
I will always see you for what God made you. You are a beautiful girl, a young woman. I hope that helping you in your journey saves you some time as a woman, trying to figure out who you are. There are a lot of lessons you will wished to have learned as a child when you're a woman. Trust me...and every other woman out there, when I say these things.
I love you, beautiful girl.